Something that I have being struggling with is the feeling of being lost. Like I’ve being going through life on auto pilot and for a split second i snapped out of it and realized i had NO idea where i was, i don’t know how i got there or how to get out of where i was going. I was at a very strange cross road in my life. I didnt even know i was at a cross road, i was just, there.  I was just walking around confused about where i was and where i was going until i went to a church and they were doing a study on Joshua and it was called “You Are Here” saying that wherever we were in our lives God would take us as we are and use us. From there I took the next step in what I knew God wanted me apart of. Youth Ministry. I have always loved kids (they may not always love me but i definitely love them) but i have always felt called to teenage girls in particular but since I’ve being home i felt like a child running in circles, with my fingers in my ears, screaming “la, la, la, im not listening, la, la, la” until i finally just stopped to listen, but all i could do is stand there and say “oh, ok”  That was 3 months ago.  Now i am pursuing Christ with all that i have. I know with all of my being that i am exactly where i am suppose to be. it is a constant struggle not too want to make plans to go move somewhere and settle down in a place that is more interesting, full of people who have no idea who i was or am. but not any more, God has put me in a job that i love (barista at starbucks), i am a leader for our highschool group, an am attending school full time, and life is good. Of course there are moments i miss the idea of somewhere new, but who doesn’t? i sure do.  But i am here. With God, and it is exactly where He wants me.

Something that I have being struggling with is the feeling of being lost. Like I’ve being going through life on auto pilot and for a split second i snapped out of it and realized i had NO idea where i was, i don’t know how i got there or how to get out of where i was going. I was at a very strange cross road in my life. I didnt even know i was at a cross road, i was just, there. 

I was just walking around confused about where i was and where i was going until i went to a church and they were doing a study on Joshua and it was called “You Are Here” saying that wherever we were in our lives God would take us as we are and use us. From there I took the next step in what I knew God wanted me apart of. Youth Ministry. I have always loved kids (they may not always love me but i definitely love them) but i have always felt called to teenage girls in particular but since I’ve being home i felt like a child running in circles, with my fingers in my ears, screaming “la, la, la, im not listening, la, la, la” until i finally just stopped to listen, but all i could do is stand there and say “oh, ok” 

That was 3 months ago. 

Now i am pursuing Christ with all that i have. I know with all of my being that i am exactly where i am suppose to be. it is a constant struggle not too want to make plans to go move somewhere and settle down in a place that is more interesting, full of people who have no idea who i was or am. but not any more, God has put me in a job that i love (barista at starbucks), i am a leader for our highschool group, an am attending school full time, and life is good. Of course there are moments i miss the idea of somewhere new, but who doesn’t? i sure do. 

But i am here. With God, and it is exactly where He wants me.

(Source: observando)